MY DARKEST SECOND!!!

We always think that life is simple and easy most especially when we begin a walk in our pilgrimage.  We think to ourselves that since we know who we are because of what we believe then we are going to have an easy walk in life.

I beg to differ!

Today in my diary I want to make something clear. As pastor we do get sick, we do go through pain, we do go through life threatening situation.

There is a belief that when men get sick the whole world knows about it, well I agree. Today I went through my darkest second. I had such a bad headache to an extent that I felt like my skull was cracking,  and every small sound would sound like someone is doing what he is doing just to intentionally irritate me.

In my moment of death my stomach starts talking to me. I felt like vomiting, I would go to the toilet but that wouldn't work. I would drink water but nothing would help.

In my darkest second, I remembered that my school did not send my paper to be marked and now I might not be graduating because of them. It started sinking in and started wrestling with the thought maybe God is teaching me to be patient but why because I have been patient for the whole 1 year and a half.

I am still sick, stomach running and my school situation is still there. The main pain that keeps on hitting hard in my spirit and the fact that I have two books that are complete and one that I am completing but I have not published anything, and two also still working on.

In my darkest second, my life turns slowly upside down.

As pastors or basically men of God we do go through situations,  and coming to think about it, we are the ones that go through terrible situations.  Remember Moses, after giving his life and also going to fetch the ten commandments and when he came back he found people worshiping other gods and to top that he did not get in the promised land. What about peter who was crucified upside down? Or Paul a powerful preach but poor in finances. On pastor in our day was kidnapped, many missionaries killed for helping.

In my darkest second, my life turns upside down.

My name is William Seitshiro and this is my diary.

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